Wellness update: Today is my weigh in day, and I have lost another 3 pounds, bringing the overall total to 7 pounds lost. Also, walking to work today I was just kicking it - the business men had to get the fuck out of my way! Yeah! I walk to work so fast that my face is red and I'm all sweaty. Bleh!
Jough, in regard to shame - no. Eating (and getting well in general), especially in your case, can not/should not be about shame. You're fueling your body and nourishing yourself - there's nothing to be ashamed about there, even if you give in to something not so nutritious from time to time. You could put a mirror in front of you every time you eat something, and just look at yourself biting and chewing (basically anyone looks gross if you closely watch them eating) - but why would you want to do that to yourself. Separating the emotional part of you from eating is a lot of work, but also, I think, the most mentally healthy way to go. If you're at all like me (and most North Americans, I think) you've got some association to food as a security blanket. I figure the further away from this state of mind I can get, the better. I don't want to turn to a bag of chips when I feel lonely or sad - I've got friends for that, and generally, my friends are calorie free.
Also, for me a diet/tracker based on UPC codes would fall too easily into the trap of eating prepaired/packaged foods, which is what I am totally working to avoid at all costs. The higher levels of processing, artificial colours and flavours, sodium, and cost, along with lower levels of fiber and nutrients are things I am not in to.